overly emotional when on meds
Greetings everyone, i have been diagnosed with ADHD a couple years ago and i’ve been on methylphenidate since( currently on 54mg concerta and 10mg ritalin).
There is this one thing i’ve been struggling with eversince i started medication, i get ec*tasy like side effects for some reason, I feel the urgent need to tell everyone i care about that i love them in a way that may seem to them like i’m love bombing them or building a foundation for me to ask them for a favor, but there are no ill intentions behind that, everytime this happens i call my mom for 10 minutes saying nothing but nice things and compliments to her that might make her think that i’m about to ask her for money, and i text my girlfriend a multitude of paragraphs expressing my love and gratitude to her, and i be oversharing sometimes whenever i’m having a conversation.
It also makes me want to smoke triple the ammount of cigarettes i usually smoke as if my lungs had a void that can only be filled with smoke. And if i force myself to sit down and not express any of this, it feels like i’m a pressure cooker that’s about to blow up into smithereens. Also, i tend to get stuck in loops that make it hard for me to focus on the tasks i actually need to do, as in if i take my medication and i scroll on instagram for a bit, my brain gets programmed into finding the most efficient ways to scroll on instagram and i am no longer able to do anything else other than scroll, but if i take and i study, i do a great job, but if i wanna do any other task after studying i won’t be able to because somehow my brain became a computer that’s only good at studying, and for some reason my brain rapidly builds up tolerance for methylphenidate and going on tolerance breaks barely does anything because after i use it again twice, it goes back to the same tolerance i had meaning i have to increase the dose again, and where i live, there is no other alternative than stratera, which i don’t really want to take.
Please help me with any piece of guidance or advice you can offer because i feel like a mess