Update: Holy cow i finally did it...
Yesterday i tried to book an appointment for next Thursday May 21st on my phone for Gender Affirming Care through Planned Parenthood but for some reason after putting in my information it brought me back saying there was an error on my part. Redid everything like 6 times and nothing. i was mad.
Today i tried again but this time using my new custom built PC i brought back in January and my booking went through! i thought it would be a 'click to confirm' prompt before making the appointment but it was just a code i had to put in and it was done. I wanted a minute to process reality like: "Am i actually doing this?" almost like a reality check. I'm happy it went through but nervous as hell because omg i am actually doing this. I've told no one but at the same time i do not feel comfortable at all attempting social transition as i am currently. Mostly due to my reputation being known as this: Hardworking quiet individual and also a chill bro. Literally everyone at work and family looks up to me so its kind of a lot of pressure. I also look like my biological father too so that also makes me super nervous because my whole family sees us in a special way. I know i can talk more when my appointment comes but just needed to get this off my chest a little. Just an update!