Dosing questions/advice
Hello all,
I was offered IV ketamine therapy in 2020 through a rehab center and my insurance covered it, but I denied it as ketamine was the only drug I had not tried and I was scared of it. I was in rehab for benzodiazepine addiction.
Fast forward 3 years I tried it, liked it very much, but because I was just dosing myself (by myself) I don’t really think I got any therapeutic benefit from it. I did 250mg.
Fast forward another 3 years to now I have done increasing amounts every Sunday for the last 5 Sundays. I started with 250mg, then 300mg, 400mg, and finally 500mg. Each time has been very therapeutic, and I think it has been a substantial benefit to my life, perhaps even helping me stay sober from the “harder drugs”.
One thing I am shocked by is the extreme jump (in my experience) from 250mg-300mg. First one felt like a relaxing therapeutic experience, and just 50mg more made me feel like I was ass-blasted into the 4th dimension. In a good way.
But I messed up. Being the addict I am I had a good day on Wednesday this week and thought why not have a nice mid-week session? So at 9:30pm I took another 500mg and it felt like I took 50mg. No visuals, no real therapeutic experience. Still felt it but I was totally aware and conscious the whole time. What a waste. I am mad at myself for messing up my schedule and letting my addict brain kick in.
I have a few questions I suppose…
Is this normal? Am I being retarded? Should I wait until Wednesday to do it again now that I’ve messed up the schedule? Or wait until next Sunday? Should I stop altogether? Should I experiment with 600mg next time? Would like some advice on this.
Thank you in advance.