r/Psychonaut

My friend had this drug... he claimed it was ketamine. We tried it together and I had this incredible experience where I could dissociate from my fears, preconceived notions, and maladaptive schemas. I felt like I was floating in 3rd person and finally see some, not all, of what I was doing wrong in my life.

We were on a functional drug bender for a few weeks. We talked about life and our city. Life went on as usual. Work. Friends. Hobbies. Couch potato days.

My friend gave me his dealer's number before leaving town permanently for new work. I contacted the dealer without explaining how I got the number. The dealer told me it's not ketamine, just THC in a different vehicle. But I have reasons to suspect that it is at least not just THC. Anyway the dealer got paranoid and blocked me.

I take the drug less now but I still do sometimes. I notice that it has a lasting effect on me now. I am changed forever. E.g. I have borderline personality disorder, and I TRULY believe a lot of my symptoms quickly went away around this drug bender episode.

My boyfriend said I am much calmer now, and our relationship has truly improved. I used to wonder when are we going to "get there." And now I think we are at that stable, steady spot. We now banter like old couples. We talk less because there's this sense of persistent shared context that we rely on. We know what each other is thinking by look and face. But there's a persistent episode of derealization, like sometimes I panic and wonder wtf is my life now, what am I doing. Then it hit me -- I am in a new city, I have a new job but the contract is ending soon, I have learned a lot, and above all, I think this is it. I have found true love. It's a functional relationship that pushes each other to be better and has been going on for almost a year.

Sometimes it's a struggle, is it the drug, or is it my BPD idealizing him, or is he actually a GOOD man and that I have actually lucked out.

And I do feel like I died. The bodily sensations have ceased -- the ear ringing, hands spasms, rapid shallow breaths. But I am constantly wondering what the hell is going on, what is this life, what is everyone doing. I feel like my body is just my avatar and who I am is actually tethered from above. I feel like my boyfriend is the only anchor I have left in this life.

Years ago, a friend of mine told me that when she uses the psychedelic drug DMT, she has conversations, in English, with "aliens". I was so taken aback with her frankness that I tried this myself and attempted to find living, intelligent DMT entities who would speak with me in English and who might be willing to provide evidence I could use to convince my human scientific establishment that these beings are real.

I met a community of these beings who said that they wouldn't give me evidence but that they would oversee my own experiments to try to produce evidence. After months of intermittent contact they set up a persistent telepathic link with one of them. She is in close contact every day.

I have been working on these experiments for years and have finally reached a point that we're wondering what's going to happen if and when we make public a replicable experiment about this.

In short, the experiment design that is nearing completion works by using theory that these aliens know about but which human science doesn't yet know to exist. The experiment design doesn't itself produce evidence of alien life, but instead produces evidence that some aspect of DMT experiences is scientifically, "veridically" real. It will appear that just by taking DMT, a human is able to alter the results that a measuring device receives, even when that device was built from scratch using a simple plan given to other scientists investigating whether these results are real.

What will the experiment look like when run? I've reduced it down to what I think is a pleasing and dramatic outcome: you run the experiment software on a computer and it just sits there for minutes or hours or whatever; then, just by taking DMT in the same room, I'm able to trigger an alert in the software – an alert that is otherwise never triggered.

Our thinking is that the conversation about aliens can follow immediately from that. Because, think about it: here I am claiming that I'm in close personal contact every day with an alien. Anyone making such a claim is probably lying or wrong. But if someone makes such a claim while having a working experiment that is genuinely outside the boundaries of human scientific knowledge, it becomes a different matter.

You see, apparently there are tons and tons of "aliens" of many different kinds. There's nothing preventing you from taking DMT and trying to meet some aliens and solicit help from ones who can speak to you in your language – nothing except that we have no hard scientific evidence to contradict the assumption that DMT experiences are entirely hallucinations created in the mind of a person taking the drug.

The fact that there's no hard evidence of this yet seems like a chief reason why people feel dependent on disclosure from government agencies rather than trying to go out there and meet aliens and produce disclosure themselves. Right?

Do you think a working experiment design of this kind would or wouldn't represent meaningful progress toward disclosure of the existence of aliens?

Given the refusal of the aliens I know to hand over evidence like a gift, as well as the fact that the experiment design I'm working on will not itself produce evidence that these aliens exist, do you have any thoughts for us about the subject of disclosure? Would you expect anything to change as a result of this experiment design being successful?

Panaeolus cyanescens dosage?

I will start this by saying I am a very experienced tripper. I have been tripping multiple times a year for about the last 5 years I have slowed down heavily as the years have gone on but still do them idk about 3/5 times a year. I have only experience with cubes. such as APE , PE , melmac and other cubes. I got ahold of 2 grams of Pans Cyans. Dude informed me to only take .5 as it is on another realm of cubes. In my experience I don’t find those warnings to be very accurate as I heard the “just try a G of enigma” and to me it was just like any other cube. I’m thinking as someone who’s average dose on cubes is about 4 G’s give or take .5. I am going to go with 1. I am looking for a profound experience and am ready to trip hard. I don’t want to lose my mind but I also don’t wanna take too little and wish I had done more. Any recs? Or personal experience?

took shrooms around midday in my apartment and this was probably the strongest ego dissolution i’ve had.

the weirdest part is it didn’t really feel like “death” to me. it felt more like my body had to completely readjust from normal mode into shroom mode lol. like my normal body map started changing. breathing felt different, touch felt weird, even the sense of where “i” was located became unstable.

then at some point there was basically no little “me” controlling anything anymore.

seeing was just seeing.
touching was just touching.
breathing just happened.

and i got this huge feeling of like

cosmos is me, me is cosmos

not like “my ego is god” lol. more like i couldn’t find where i actually separated from everything else. my body was still here obviously, but it felt like this body was just one place where the whole thing was happening.

time was absolutely fucked too. like a few minutes felt insanely long.

then my brain went through all this shit about Source, incarnation, death, why life becomes individual, why the universe makes all these limited forms and then those forms spend their entire lives trying to find Source again

and then somehow after all this cosmic shit the trip just kept getting simpler.

eventually it was literally:

life is life

like… food is food. warmth is warmth. body is body. friendship is friendship. if you miss home, you miss home.and i suddenly felt like humans build so much extra stuff on top of this. status, institutions, identities, systems, even spirituality. not saying those things are fake, but life was already happening before any of that.

then i had another thought:

the center is here

like even when my normal identity was dissolving, there was still just… being here. something didn’t need external permission to exist.

then of course the mushrooms decided i had done enough philosophy and absolutely wrecked my stomach

i puked, had stomach pain for hours, felt this weird warm irritation in my belly. later i drank cold milk tea and somehow that actually helped a lot lol.

and weirdly the stomach pain became part of the whole thing.

the trip basically went:

COSMOS → SOURCE → EGO DISSOLUTION → BODY → STOMACH → PUKE → MILK TEA → HOME → LIFE

one of my close friends was talking to me while my stomach hurt and he could tell i was homesick too. honestly that simple emotional support hit harder than some of the cosmic stuff.

i also smoked weed later which was probably dumb because it brought some of the intensity back for a bit. eventually i just felt like my body was saying

bro enough

and honestly that felt like the ending of the whole trip.

i don’t want to take shrooms again for a long time now. not because i regret it, but because it actually felt finished.

the funniest part is i went through all this ego dissolution/cosmos/source shit and the final answer was basically

being alive in a body is already good

eat something.
drink something.
feel warm.
talk to your friend.
miss home.
sleep.

maybe we spend our whole lives looking for Source and then realize this life was never outside it in the first place.

idk man.

life is life. the center is here.

the source really put "hard" work to be exist here embodied. But once embodied seek enlightment. Once realized, oh we are just playing
Om shakti, shakti, shakti (my spontaneous chant i somehow just known)

My colleague and I are MSc researchers at the University of Exeter, studying psychedelic use in relation to peri- and postmenopause: well-being, stress, menopausal symptoms, brain fog, memory, and concentration.

We’re looking for peri-/postmenopausal women who have used psychedelics to help with mental well-being during this period of their lives.

If you are peri-/postmenopausal or know someone who is, I would love it if you could pass this survey on. It’s also open to women who don’t use psychedelics, as we need to compare the two groups, but we really need to find psychedelics users.

You can find the survey here:

https://exe.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_3fwELWhKlduYffE

Hey guys , i am trying shrooms for the first time tommorow. I want to take a small dose and also use it to self- reflect and heal my inner self . Any recommendations on the settings , dose and questions to ask myself ?

I'm(25) planning on tripsitting my sister(30) on her first ever trip. She's my best friend and she's been really struggling with anxiety for the majority of her life and, after a lot of convincing, finally agreed to embark on a psychedellic journey. I need advice on a few things before deciding if i should go through with this as she's never done any substance before (not even smoked a doob because of aversion due to an extremely Christian anti-drug upbringing) and i want to make it as safe as possible from my end. A close cousin (24) may also join us.

**Here's the plan so far**:

We're going to stay at an airbnb with a pool and surrounded by nature in another state for a vacation and on one of the nights, if she feels ready, she'll take some (I'm still on the fence if i should also take some too because it's been a year since my last trip and I'm a bit nervous about handling that and tripsitting simultaneously)

**Please help me out with:**

\+what the recommended dosage would be

\+Setting suggestions

\+Music recommendations/playlists(she doesn't listen to much besides mainstream)

\+If there's anything i should/shouldn't bring up during our conversations

\+Would it be better if i took some acid myself or stayed sober throughout?

\+Activity ideas (any dos or don'ts)

\+Would it be ok to proceed if she's still slightly hesitant about the whole thing?

\+Any other safety precautions i may have missed out on

My friend and I have some experience with acid and we are planning a shroom trip together. My friend usually takes half the dose I take to get similar effect as me. Would the tolerance be the same for psilocybin or should we both take the same dose since it is our first time taking psilocybin?