How would you approach an intentional mushroom trip when you feel stuck in life?
I’ve been growing mushrooms for a couple of years as a hobby and mostly giving them to friends, but I’ve recently been thinking about actually having a more intentional experience myself.
I’m in my early 30s and have felt increasingly stuck in life. The biggest issue is probably my relationship with stimulants and doing things. In the past, stimulants made me feel decisive and able to engage with my life — pick something, act on it, and move forward. Without them, I’ve developed this awful pattern of overthinking, indecision, and avoidance. I can spend enormous amounts of time thinking about what I should do while actually doing very little.
There are other things tangled up in that too: loneliness/isolation, avoiding career questions, being gay and some unresolved identity/dating stuff, anxiety about getting older and feeling behind, etc.
I’m not expecting mushrooms to fix any of this. I’m wondering whether an intentional trip might help me look at some of these patterns differently or reconnect with parts of my life I’ve been avoiding.
What I’m unsure about is how to approach the trip itself. Would you go into an experience like this with one specific intention, or is this already way too much agenda to bring into a trip? Would you journal/reflect on these things beforehand and then basically let go once the trip starts?
I’m also unsure about setting: home vs. somewhere in nature, alone vs. with a trusted friend/sitter, music/eyeshades and deliberately turning inward vs. just creating a comfortable environment and seeing where the experience goes.
Basically, if you were in my position and wanted this to be an opportunity for genuine reflection rather than simply getting high and seeing what happens, how would you prepare for and approach the experience without trying to micromanage it? I only know how to use drugs to get high, not really how to use them for therapeutic/healing and would really love some advice. :)