Losing My Shit Due To Future Anxiety
I am a college student and have really shitty teachers. Like they won't even bother sharing the course outline with us. I really studied everything they taught in class but they still deduct marks without a reason. They won't even bother sticking to a schedule. I've managed to maintain a good cgpa so far but I'm worried because recently the in one of the finals (50 marks) they included out of syllabus things and if we count how many marks would that be then it comes out to be between 16-19! Recently the just told us that they're going to take finals 15 days earlier! (I take at least a week to go over all of the material before exams) And we didn't even get a whole week. Just 2-3 days. Everyone was stressed. They told us to just pass the exams and do away with it. It honestly made me so angry because people like me are dependent on scholarships. I can barely afford a drink in college. Low cgpa is going to prevent me from getting a scholarship for my master's. That too for a fully funded masters. How am I supposed to compete with 4 cgpa students with a lot of experience?! On top of this we don't even get to do any lab work or extracurriculars! I already come from an underprivileged toxic and unstable family, how do I deal with all of this?! Even if I study all the material, it seems like they just pull questions out of their ass! Like they won't even bother mumbling a word that gives away that this and this will be in the exam.
How do I deal with it? I know grades aren't everything and in the end most people get their shit together anyways with time but I've seen enough poverty to not waste any time. General life advice to deal with anxiety and adulthood would be appreciated.