u/ConfusionOk514

Last month I went to an retreat at a Buddhist monastery for seven days during the Thingyan holidays. My parents want me to go there for my luck for the future and, so no bad luck could touch me.

During those seven days I went into an routine at the monastery, wake up early, meditate for a few hours, recite mantras, and listen to Buddhist teachings. It was enlightening, but it was also frightening, to understand that the life is only temporary and all things ends.

Through out my 21 years of life I knew that knowledge, but being there at that time it was relearning it again.

The teachings were eerily spot on about daily life and the cause of suffering. I went into a somewhat of a spiral of existential crisis and a quarter life crisis. It was an experience, one that I won't have to revisit again and I hope I won't revisit it.

So, yeah it was a transformative but a sad experience during that time.

When we were young we took things for granted, like food, water, responsibility, free time, and etc etc. Now looking back you just realised how much we have wasted or unappreciated the liberties we had. And as you age you started to feel sad or small about life and yourself, like which choice will have the less likely hood of failure and which is the best and quickest way to a leisure life. Is sad really when you think about it, but it also shows you to appreciate every small moments you get cause they won't last.

Hi, I new here and I'm in need of advice. Is been a wild ride these 21 years of my life and I been at the highest high and the lowest lows and that isn't on drugs by the way. But these past 5 to 6 years have been rough, like really rough. Like there is no breathing room and with back to back news of dangers and negative news.

And right now I need something to give me hope, like something that make me want to wake up in the morning and go through the day with all the strength of an elephant. The things that used to give me hope are now gone, forgotten, ended, or ending like shows both live action and animation series and movies, they were something back in the days. I missed those days, but right now I can't focus on the now. My mind is going back and forth, into the past and simultaneously to the future. Anxiety and worries make me want to lay down in bed and not get up.

And the worst part I in Myanmar. I'm not complaining but it might be sound like I'm complaining, it just hard to live nowadays.