Wanting to be chosen
Hey! New account for anonymity because people i know know my usual username and lurk in here.
I'd like to know your thoughts on never feeling like you're enough or loved. I'm currently solo poly, but I've been looking for a primary and/or np for years now but I've never been able to find one.
I've been in so many abusive and toxic relationships that left me feeling like I'm doing something wrong and I'm only a convenience to people. I've finally found a partner that I feel respects me and that takes time and energy to listen and understand, which is so precious to me because I never had that, but they also don't have the capacity for something more than casual with no love developing, so I feel at a lost.
I seem to never find someone that loves me enough to either treat me right or want to develop deeper feelings.
For context, they are my only partner at the moment as finding more hasn't been working out.