Was I too clingy
I recently went to a bonfire with my boyfriend that his friend had hosted. Before we went he told me that there may be white women there. Which I expected because the friend that invited us previously had a white girlfriend so it seems like that what he likes. My boyfriend asked if I would be the only girl of color there and the friend said no, said that there would be other women my color. So when we arrived all I seen was white women and black men. I grew up seeing my people around me and being around black men going for white women was a big culture shock to me cause I have only seen things like this online.Now this wasn’t a problem with me because I was there with my boyfriend but It made it harder for me try to connect with these women because they are white drunk girls. And to be honest they were clicked up and focused on the men and I’m the only black woman there. Now I smoked a little there. I’ve never been the type to smoke till I get high and out of my mind but I smoke to get a little buzz and this was honestly the first time I smoked while attending something others will be at. So I became a little clingy to my boyfriend. I have never been the type to be clingy. And honestly I think it was because I feel safe when I am next to him. Now this was the first time ever I have been like this with a man. I told him that night that if I am being too clingy to tell me and I will stop. He told me it was ok or so I thought so. The next day he told me I was being clingy and to be honest it kinda hurt my feeling. He said it was because I didn’t really talk to the other girls. Which I understand but I’m not used to this. I think what I’m trying to say is this is the first time I have ever felt like I can be comfortable enough to be up under my man. Especially because I felt like I was uncomfortable and for him to say I was too clingy I feel like I let my guard down. I feel like now I can’t show my clingy side when I am with him. But please be honest was I too much.