Loving someone so much can not always be enough
Hello I’m 22 male and I have been dating my gf 24 for 2 years . Our relationship has been very tricky . I have been hurt by her so many times for so long that when there’s peace I feel very stressed . I am so used to I don’t feel right if something isn’t happening and I feel like I am going crazy . When she gets angry it seems to have no end . Over distances she would say very very horrible things . For example when my brother passed away last year . She got very sweet for a few days but then she just left me the day of his funeral . And when I asked where she was she told me she was sleeping . She then went through his social media and made fun of him for who he followed . She made me sit there and listen it was really hard she seems to really like making fun of him which I never understood because she never met him . She once sent me a photo of body decomposition and told me what stage he was in . She’s hit me thrown things at me yelled at me in public . She’s slapped me awake after going through my phone finding photos of my family on my phone . She really hates my family. I told her about my past my dad for example and the horrible things he has done . But ofc she uses this against me. She also makes fun of my little sisters . When I’m at work she would spam call me telling me to do things which when then get me fired . When she angry she uses words like dog and good boy which makes me very uncomfortable. I don’t know why she does these things and I don’t know why I love her after everything. There is way way more but th topics are very dark and I don’t feel it’s appropriate for Reddit . I just wanted to vent thank you for reading