Am I crazy or is my relationship toxic af latley?
So my husband and I have been together for over a year and just got married, I feel like since we got married everything is falling apart. Keep in mind I have some pretty gnarly health issues and my husband knew this when we got together, he was there when I had major surgery. Now it seems like my health issues are a problem. I had dr appts and they are about 40 mins from home and I’m not able to work because of my health issues so it falls on him for the most part. I do get about 700$ a month doing things for cash. But he was all supportive of my appointments at first but then it started to become an issue and it was too much gas and so on and so forth. So I ended up canceling my appointments. Now I sit around all week and let the 4 kids run rampant, which is funny because I cook and clean when my health allows me too and at first it was enough and it has slowly become not enough. He gets mad and slams doors, he’s never ever put hands on me but I have history of domestic abuse and it’s triggering sometimes. I have said things to him about how he makes me feel and it seems nothing changes, it’s always my fault. I don’t know what to do???
Please be nice, I know what I should do but I honestly don’t know how to do it.
Advice welcome