It’s possible that I was misdiagnosed and I don’t know how to deal with that
I went to my psychiatrist today and she told me it’s possible that I have adhd. Prominent symptoms of it are emotional instability and heavy mood switches. I was informally diagnosed with bpd when I was 16 and officially with 18. I’m 21 now and lived with this diagnosis for 5 years now and came to terms with it. I was in therapy for quite a lot since I have a lot of issues and heavy trauma but one of my main problems used to be bpd. I don’t know how to feel now about the possibility that it could have been adhd all along. I don’t have an official diagnosis yet, it only came up today and my doctor gave me medikinet to test if it helps and I will get an appointment for an official testing.
I know this sounds stupid and toxic and I’m so ashamed of it but I got used to the thought of having bpd. It became a part of me and I don’t know how to feel if this is „taken away from me“.
Like I said I don’t know it for sure but this has been going through my mind all day long now.