[M 27] Am I bi or is it just a fantasy?
I want to experiment having sex with another man, being passive, but I am disgusted by the thought of kissing one or caressing one or being caressed by one. I love doing that with women, though. Isn't that weird? Like, how am I even gonna get to have that experience? I don't look at a man and think "I want to have sex with him" like I do with women. I can't exactly use Tinder or other apps either, because I don't find men attractive.
Once I was really horny and asked a friend to come over and have sex, but once he got here I lost interest completely and didn't want it anymore. We tried to "get me in the mood", but I didn't wanna do anything, it felt disgusting.
Once I heard from a sexologist/psychologist that sometimes we enjoy conjuring certain fantasies to masturbate, but don't actually wanna have them in real life with another person. But I really wanna see if I'd like it and I really believe I would, just not doing any of the lovey dovey stuff.
Like that meme "I make love to women and have sex with men".