u/Conscious_History306

It's now 6 weeks postpartum and I know I should go to my check up to get cleared and everything, but I really really don't want to. My doctor was decent as a human being but I do suspect medical negligence that led to late diagnosis of my baby's lung tumor. Whether things would've been different if she caught it earlier or not is uncertain, but in all cases, I really absolutely cannot stand seeing her again. And I am just not emotionally ready to look for other doctors already. So is the check up really important or can I just skip it? I am physically feeling okay. Also, I had a c-section if it makes a difference.

It's almost 5 weeks since I lost my baby boy at 32 weeks. Pretty much everything triggers me, even the most normal or unexpected things, but what really really sends me are babies/children being mistreated or neglected. My heart just breaks because I want my baby so much and I would've given him the world. I would give up anything to have him, and there are people out there who are lucky enough to have kids but are treating them like shit. Does anyone else go through this?

Sorry for the rant. I just wish he was here.