Meditation induced psychosis and Sok lung
Hello everyone. In September last year I went through a psychotic episode after having done a Tibetan yoga (Kum nye) retreat with my teacher.
It began with a feeling of utmost bliss and grounding, like I was intensely present in the moment with no thoughts whatsoever and then I went into some sort of delusional thinking for the next few days. I wasn’t sleeping, I had high energy and I was just behaving strangely with people , saying strange things to them etc.
I haven’t really found answers to why this happened and ever since I have been on antipsychotics.
I am wondering if I went through a lung disorder, and if so, if anyone has gone through something similar, I wanted to know how long does it take to recover from something like this.
It has become difficult for me to visualise and meditate. I am currently doing my Ngongdro, vajrasattva visualisations.
I feel like I have lost confidence in myself and my level of awareness seems to have gone really down.
It would be really nice to speak with someone who has gone through some thing similar.
Thank you.
Edited - I forgot to mention earlier that prior to the retreat I also was going through a severe gut issue which wasn’t recovering for about 8months prior, was only eating rice and buttermilk for about 3 months.