Recovery has been so hard and full of anxiety, is it just me?!
this is the first time I’m writing something like this so please bare with me…
on 7/10 I had positive pregnancy, urine and blood work. at the time my progesterone was a tad low but the doctor said she wasn’t alarmed and scheduled me for my first appointment for a later time. it was my 2nd pregnancy but the 1st i was moving forward with and I was surprised I was given no instructions of what I should be doing, like vitamins etc. so I had to ask.
about a few days letter I went to the pool, and I was getting weird cramping and even some weird arm sensations and I was told to go in for early pregnancy ultra sound. The doctor told me it was an unknown pregnancy and they would continue to monitor me because based on the calendar I was only 5 weeks.
the following week i started experiencing sever and painful gas pain like I could not pass gas! I ended up buying gas x which helped but it def did not feel right! When I told my doctor she said that I should monitor the triggers. a few days later it happened again and the following morning I had cramping and did not feel good I went to the ER and they confirmed it was an ectopic pregnancy! the Ear doctors made a comment that bothered me asking how could my doctor not see this the previous week. She treated me with medication and advised it could still rupture. the following morning I was rushed to the ER for cramping and it was so bad I couldn’t sit for the transvaginal ultra sound and I was told it had begun to rupture and I was being rushed into the OR. I lost my right fallopian tube!
I am now 25 days post op, and I have had the WORSE anxiety! I am kind of hypochondriac so every thing I have felt sent me into a panic! I had shoulder pain and went to the ER thankfully I was fine, at my 2 week post op my doctor was very robtic looked at my incisions said I was fine and that was it no more no less. I then started getting chest pains and went to my PCP he assured me I was having muscle tension from my sleeping position. the following monday I had cramping so I rushed to the ER told them about my shoulder, chest pain, and cramping they did a full work up EKG, CT, chest X-ray and transvaginal ultrasound everything showed as normal and was told I am healing and okay! it made me feel better but I am still struggling with anxiety!
i still have pulling and tugging occasionally, and I’m not panicking but my anxiety is now going about normal life I have been cooped up in the house for over a month and I am so anxious about being alone or going outside! my home has been my safe place and I am struggling!!
sorry for the long message, it has been so hard to try and feel normal! I’m so focused on physical healing that my mental healing isn’t happening at all! 😢