Life After a kid
Hi we are both old parents who came too late in life to have a child ( both 45) but too early for our own relationship ( after less than 1 year together), and it turned out to be a disaster. I discovered a person envious, patronising and with an incestious relationship with his own sister. I hate being close to my son's father, but I love my kid, I try to smile, to resist being present and gracious ( he is 15 months) but I have disgust in my stomach when seeing his father and I hate that he can harm me in some ways ( narcissistic, passive aggressive, using silence in a manipulative way). I am going to therapy, I started to work to be independent while my son is in nursery, I am contacting a lawyer but I am destroyed by the idea of splitting my son's time in half. Plus, the father is lazy and inattentive, I am afraid he could lack care and this stops to leave him for good. I need a word of comfort and compassion from someone who navigated gracefully the separation.
Thanks