Can someone drill it in my head and make me wake tf up?
It’s almost been three months and he’s been acting stone cold and he completely ignores me. I still hold onto the relationship, I still wait for him, I still exist in our promises unable to let go of them. Because how could I possibly let go of a promise I made about forever? Even though he did the same. I need to really live as though this is our new forever. But a part of me was even hesitant to write that because how could I possibly accept that. I just need to get out of this because part of me doesn’t even want to move on. I cannot unfollow him or get rid of our memories, I am holding on because I‘d regret throwing it away. But he did the same, I should be as quick with moving on as he is. But I‘m holding on. I need someone to talk sense into me, tough love, just anything that finally makes me realize that my man isn’t there anymore. That my ex isn’t the man who was my boyfriend. That my ex isn’t the man holding on to these promises. That this is all in the past and means nothing for our future anymore.
I cannot possibly do it because I made these promises with all my heart.
Oh and I do read lots of the „he/she came back“ stories and hold onto hope. At times I do the opposite and tell myself it’s over but I‘m switching between hope and acceptance.