I’m drained
I’m drained with whatever I’m dealing with right now. My mum wants me to develop her business instead of working for some other company. Nen vachi full month avvaledu job ki they want me to come back already. Enthaina intiki kulodu ni antha easy ga vadileyaru ga.
Nen edo career set cheskundam ankunna but she said she’ll pay me the same amount what my company is paying and that I’ll not have any expenses. Idem saavo ardam katledu. Intiki velte mental health potundi. Paga pattaru na mida kompa lo andaru nen pelli cheskotledu ani. Intiki techeddam ani unnaru my mum’s side family andaru.
Business chuskuntu intlone unte, nuv intlo unav kabatte ma andarki help avtundi ledante chala kastam ayyedi, ma health sudden ga bagokapoina you’ll always be there antaru. Job ledu emaina chuskuntunava leda. Inkenni rojulu ila antaru. Sare let me go ante no antaru. Unna job pogottaru
My final straw was when my grandmother asked me if I know how to stitch and I said no, her reply was “nuvu bewarse ga unnav tintav, dunnapothu laga pantav leda phone chuskuntav” after all what I did for them. Na last job kuda when I was in north, they pressurised me to resign and come back home because ekkado vere state lo evado daridrudu oka ammai ni murder chesadu.
So come back to right now. Intiki velte I’d save more money faster and have a clearer path toward my goal, but the price is my mental health. I’m also shit scared to go back home.
Ikkade unte it will take a lot more time so I need to find a new job but atleast I love my routine of having food early. Brush my teeth. Bath. Skincare. Bed by 8 PM. Pakkana em gola lekunda coolie duties lekunda I’m at peace. Peace kadu because anni sides nunchi mingestunnaru but still better than before. I’m very tired assure cheydanki boyfriend kuda ledu 🤡 oddule unte inko gola 👩🏽🦯
Ipudem cheste manchidi antaru? 😔