[M 24] Questioning bisexuality and crossdressing after quitting porn — looking for insight
Hi everyone,
I recently hit 45 days porn-free and find myself on a meaningful recovery journey, but also a genuine journey of self-discovery around my sexuality and expression. I'd love to hear your wisdom and experiences.
A little background — I'm a guy who has always been primarily attracted to women visually and emotionally. However I've also had a natural interest in crossdressing and feminine expression that has always felt comfortable, not just sexual, even growing up.
I also notice a very specific and narrow attraction to certain types of men, mostly around receptive experiences — not a broad attraction to men generally.
My big question is — now that I'm off porn, I'm trying to figure out what's genuinely me versus what porn created or amplified over the years. The intensity of the crossdressing interest has faded since quitting but it's still there in a quieter, more comfortable way. The fact that it's still present without porn makes me think it might genuinely be part of who I am.
I've never had any experiences with men, but with crossdressing I notice it feels more natural now — less like an urge or craving tied to porn and more like a calm part of my identity.
I'm just wondering if anyone has been here — how did you know what was genuinely you versus what porn built up over time?