i fdx with my ex
i fdx with my ex every couple months
we don't talk about it. it just happens.
2am. no queue. she taps. or i do. neither of us acknowledges who taps first.
the session is 90% silence. no "how have you been." no "seeing anyone?" just pointing at charts and nodding.
"good score." "this ones easy." "nice."
that's the whole conversation.
here's the thing though.
our duo is still nasty.
she knows what charts i can fc+ before i pick them.
i know her scores better than the last 6 randoms i've played with.
we don't communicate because we don't need to.
400 credits of muscle memory doesn't give a fuck about relationship status.
we'll fdx 7 charts together. maybe 8 on a good night.
then it's "gg" and we leave round1 for another 2 months.
no follow up. no "we should do this more often." nothing.
because we both know what this is.
it's not friendship.
it's not rekindling.
it's not even nostalgia.
it's that neither of us has found better synergy.
and that's the uncomfortable truth about fdx.
you can break up with someone and still be stuck with them competitively.
you can hate someone's guts and still combo perfectly in a sightread.
you can move on emotionally and still be hardstuck trying to replace what you had in game.
some people have exes they still fuck.
i have an ex i still duo with.
honestly not sure which is worse.
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