u/Constant-Mix4369

When my mate was at his peak it made sense. I was 100 kg, acne, smelled, low skills, bad grooming all the generic shit. He was 90kg of pure muscle, he has the gym as a hobby I gamed. It made sense.

So I improved, every aspect. I collected fragrances, got multiple skills, interesting hobbies, lost weight, fixed my wardrobe, gained muscle, groomed the best I could, cleaned my skin with expensive shit.

And my mate is at the worst he ever is. 135kg. Never goes out with people. No hobbies except gaming, dead end job, his skin got worst. Wears dirty fucking hoddies, ruined jeans and a messy torn boots.

But I am still an undesirable/unloveable person. He still gets all the attention. Girls approach him constantly when I drag him anywhere social. I can become friends with females but I can’t make any form of deeper connection. He refuses to be friends with girls. As he put it “if I’m hanging out with chicks we either fucking or we dating”.

That is the worst part. Be it his face or aura or personality or some other bullshit is something I can never obtain or improve and that hidden unchangeable aspect is what makes the difference. The worst version of me is a 2/10. My best version is. 4/10. His worst is 7/10 and his best is a 10/10.

He has had 10/10 models with rich cars rain gifts on him. Girls pay for trips from around the world to come to his house (where he lives with his mother). And all I want is a girl to care about me. I don’t care if she is fat. Doesn’t want to do house chores. Or anything else. I just want to be desired and someone to care when I die.

I don’t hate my mate he is my bro. I will do my best to support him with whatever. He is my longest friendship and without him I properly wouldn’t be here (even if he doesn’t know it). But it’s so sad and depressing to know that no matter how much I improve I will always be inferior when it comes to dating and trying to form a relational connection. He will always be desired no matter what and I never will.