Why did he treat me that way?
I’m still on speaking terms with him even if I don’t want to be, I just find it difficult to fully leave him and I don’t have anyone to speak to about this or a safe place to run to if I leave him. I haven’t gone out with friends in a year or so and my last resort to understanding and grasping what he did to me and why is Reddit. I’m in a state of shock where nothing is really processing. Maybe it’s my brain just trying to avoid and repress all the physical abuse, the verbal abuse, and the taunting he put me through but I truly want to know why he did to me. Of all the women he’s dated, I was the one he chose to torment and abuse. This question has permeated my mind for so long. I want to know why he chose me to do all of this to and I just want to understand why. This might sound dumb but I even asked him why me, why did he choose me to do all of this to. He just replies with “I don’t know”. I want to know so bad why I was the one he chose to abuse.