No way out of this
Summary: been living my worse nightmare after moving for 2 years. How can I find a way out of this
Umm to basically sum it up I'm 16F. I moved from east Asia to uk for better education and spot for uni. However it's already been two years and I'm struggling really badly with myself and my mental health. I didn't find a problem socializing at first but as time went on I really feel this wall between everyone at schl and me. It's not their problem it's just the culture and my humour is so different i feel like an actual clown with them. I also don't want to sound attention seeking to my old friends and Im not as close to them anymore. Im changing schools next year for sixth form but most people from my old one switch there and everyday I feel this impending sense of doom and I'm actually so scared to go. I don't want to socialize anymore I want to give up
Im fairly realistic and no matter how much I think I can't get myself out of this situation. No matter what I probably will still need to thug this shit out. And I really can't do this anymore. In my old school I would say I'm one of the loud kids pretty connected to the whole grade got some good ass friends always laughing. But now I have a total sum of 0 friends I have no aspirations in life. I already know for a fact with how depressed I am I can't concentrate well academically that means I'll end up w a shit uni and a shit job and a shit life that won't even be worth living. Should I just try again at life. My whole point was to ask for ways to possible improve or solve the problem but now it just sounds like a seek help rant haha whoops