What's a unique perfume for the summer? I have a couple but I'm somehow not satisfied.
I got Afnan Supremacy CE, Rave Now, Hawas Ice, Atralia Absolute Chill, CDN Iconic, Surah Elixir. Any suggestions?
Hey everyone.
M23, studying in one of the reputed Institute of our country. My personal life is a total mess.
I liked a person back in the days. There were no commitments. She knew about my likings and I got the hints that she is also keen. That was 7-8 years ago. But as I grew up, I understood that there's a distance between our standards. I belong to a middle class solvent family whereas she is rich. There's also a big gap between our lifestyle and our perspectives.
The problem is, I realized all of this a lot later. You can say I'm a late bloomer. Spent my entire school and college life with just a couple of friends. Was always focused on sports and academics. So, I never learned how to get along with girls. Since my eyes were set on her, I didn’t even interact with other girls much often.
As I realized she is out of my league, it was already too late for me to start shaping my personal life properly. It was already been established by then that I'm someone rigid, not so friendly, kinda avoidant. I never learned my ways around the opposite genders.
Now, I'm struggling. I get the urge to have someone to call my own, to talk to someone about tonight's big moon. I feel the need to be loved by someone, someone's ear I can ruin by talking about football. To get my ears rotten by listening to someone talking about her day. It's like a sovereign of silence. As if I'm ruling an empty hearth, the castle is built but the heart of the home is missing.
As I'm getting closer to my mid 20's, all these feelings are killing me from the inside. The simple solution would be to approach someone, right? I tried. I tried different socials, wanted to talk to someone to get to know them better. But the conversation never continues. I feel like since I have no clue about how this works, I'm making a mistake in the way somehow. This loneliness is driving me crazy, and to think that it's my own fault infuriates me every now and then.
Although I'm a student, I have a slightly modest earning. I don't smoke, drink or have any other addictions. I spend my money on buying perfumes, dressing well, foods I love, Football accessories and mostly travelling here and there (mostly Bandarbans). I'm also a engaging person. I can freely talk to someone in a social gathering. When I see others having a partner, who is not as good as I am in some aspects, pains me. I feel insecured of myself, self-esteem gets damaged. No offense to anyone, it's just that the comparison comes out naturally when you're lacking somewhere. The question, "why not me?" - I have no answer to that. Because I'm not that ugly. I have a decent height, good posture and fitness, (maybe the face could do a little more work, jk). I'm humble, polite. I get so many compliments from the older people for being decent. But what am I doing wrong that it's not working out against people of my age?
Now I feel like I'm stuck in a loop. I don't have someone > want to have someone > try to get to know someone > The conversation stops > late night thoughts make me feel lonely, make me realize I don't have someone \[repeat\]. I don't know how to get out of this loop. I'm suffering a lot, my academics is also being affected nowadays. Health is also deteriorating every now and then. I'm losing hope for myself.