I (15m) dated this guy (18m) online. We met on a subtwt (a notorious one, mind you) in December, and I broke up with him sometime around April(?)
I was actively talking privately to older people around the time we met. I was also really mentally unwell, and he knew that. He told me he had malicious intent at first, but then I told him about the other adults I was talking to. I guess he felt bad? Either way, he helped me out of that whole situation (which I still really appreciate) and also helped me with my other problems.
Things were going great, but I felt really iffy about dating him (since legally, he is an adult and I'm a teen). I confronted him, and he took it really well, which made things worse. (Our conversations were sexual in nature, but I can't tell if it was as a joke or not. He also sent me explicit voice audios and encouraged me to draw NSFW.)
I don't know what to do. I really care about him, and I think he cares about me too, but I just can't get over him. I'm not talking to him as of now, but he has been messaging me a bit (mainly his worries of how I'm doing and if I'm okay)
I feel really bad and scared. Did I make a mistake? Should I talk to him again? I'm really desperate for advice on this since it's such a grey, taboo area.