We have been TTC for a year and half. Last year , we thought okay let’s try but that year was toxic and overwhelming for us wrt work. My husband travels 60% for his work. I did not track ovulation or any cycle last year because I thought it will happens. But months passed and no positive result and due to workplace toxicity,my cycle worked by the end of the year. I got my periods in 20 days and then in 32 days… my hair turned grey.I was into complete mess.
Then this year in Jan , I went to obgyn to check everything is okay. She changed my vitamins to THERANATAL CORE, OVASITOL AND CAL-MAG. I started tracking my ovulation as well.
In addition to this, started diet plan for hormonal balance and blood sugar levels. Doing Guided meditation, breathing and Yoga exercises since then.
I’m trying to get less involved at work so I don’t think about it all the time. This can impact my job. Honestly, I living in fear of loosing my job. I don’t have any other option as of now. Of course yoga meditation helps a lot but this is just one of low days when I’m sharing my thoughts. Sometimes, it gives me feeling that I’m stuck somewhere and screaming to get out of it but nothing is working.
Sometimes I feel like quitting but I can’t because of certain reasons.
Is this impacting my TTC journey??
It’s already been more than four months. It scares me as I’m loosing time. Also , last month I went for blood work which indicated low AMH.
On positive side, I see improvement in myself physically and mentally. I got closer to my husband. There are less arguments and we support each other more. I lost 10 pounds. Yoga has made my body more flexible.
Hopefully, this TTC journey brings the best. May be god is making me more patient and calm.