u/Content_Chocolate845

It's me, the girl who asked about the celebration stuff.

All this rumiating triggered my anxiety so much, that I can barely live my life: I feel dismotivated, I can barely eat or drink water, everything feels purposeless...

So, I decided to just live the best that I can, doing what my conscious tells me according to God. It's incredible how JW can make you feel as a sinner just for a meal to celebrate your birthday, for example, saying it's wrong because you are celebrating a person. I mean, if we have this mentality, sports or studies achievements shouldn't be celebrated. Having sex in a commited relationship isn't bad either if it's a long term stuff.

PS: I want to know what made you get out of them

Hello everyone! I hope you are doing well. I'm not so good and feel divided about what to do.

It's like my second publication at a christian subreddit. That's how lost and desperate I feel.

You see: I've been looking for the true christian path since I'm 11, when I started to study the Bible with JW. I took distance because there where stuff that didn't made sense for me, like rejection towards LGBT behavior (being bi), human philosophy at all, sindicalism and another doctrines. Still think it's the most close to the truth, but those stuff just didn't fit for me.

The question is what to do next, because I feel like, even when God our circumstances, he wants us to follow him in his terms.

For example, IDK what to do about parties related with pagan past (Christmas, birthdays, New Year). It is fine to replace them for a meeting without idolatric elements (for example, for greeks, blowing candles was related to attract the gods; Christmas is based on Saturnalia). God calls us to stay away from idolatric elements.

In another hand, I've been on a relationship for more than a year, and we have sex without being married. Even when is a monogamous, commited relationship, I feel guilt sometimes.

All these things comes up with OC behavior that is ruining my peace and every aspect of my life (work, relationships, self love). What should I do to find some equilibrate state?