Do you see yourself as asexaul and or childfree?
Im a woman (which i feel like always get hate in the hiki sub being a woman but Idc I belong here) and struggling with my sexaulity. I use to be hiki and only messed around online or enjoyed erotic fantasy. Ive since shedded being hiki after have a psychotic episode that cause me to come out of my room. I sometimes get crushes but I really can't see myself doing anything physically. I once was intimate with a male and felt nothing.
Part of me wonders if since I'm so adamantly childfree that I'm sex repulsed due to seeing how often birth control has failed women. I never want a child. So I wonder if getting sterilized will help fix that and id be more willing to be out there or if Im really just a closeted asexual.
My sexaulity has been all over the place in term of things if gotten off to masurbation wise but lately I'm finding male more gross and women more comfortable but I'm wonder if that's because men can't get me pregnant.
Anyway all this is hypothetical because I've never really dated. And I've been falling back into hiki habits like not going out and being a neet :/ lately
Do you see yourself as asexaul and child free since hikis don't leave the house or do you feel the your online exploration is valid as expressing your sexaulity? Asexauls can get off to pornography without wanting someone irl.