r/hikikomori

I feel like I have low iq naturally since I was a kid

I've been waiting on this for far too long. I am sure there is someone out there just like me. I'm tired of suffering, this is weird and i'm sure you know what I'm talking about: I don't even feel the need nor the urge for social contact, but the lack sure has its effects, and I'm tired of it.

As the title says I am looking for a genuine deep and committed queerplatonic friendship that will last for life.

I'm looking for a person with the same struggles as me, and I want us to help eachother in finding our peace, help eachother inherit healthy habits, support eachother when we are forced to get out our cave and are emotionally struggling. And of course, I want to spend time with you and enjoy ourselves chilling or have fun. I want to love you and you to love me.

I'm looking for other autistic people. 18 year olds or 19; though you'd be older than me by a year. I've been a shut-in since i was 13 years old and left school since. I've been lacking emotionally safe spaces, support and social contact.

You must be open minded and a genuinely kind person.

My biggest interest are videogames, animes and mangas.

CEST UTC+2 is the timezone I'm in. It's probably good for the both of us if our timezones are the or nearly the same.

Not to travel to the future immediately, but I will let you know that I might be interested in this not being stuck online or behind a chat forever. I'm the first to know it's really hard to expose yourself but I am willing to push myself and you should be as well, we'll help eachother, too.

This is a throwaway account and this post doesn't say much about me and even more nothing about my personality, as I'd rather remain as anonymous as I can get. If this sounds good to you, message me and leave me your discord.

I feel like I must specify I'm NOT looking for anything sexual or near that nature, which to me includes romantic. I'd feel more comfortable if you'd have no such interests as well.

I am absolutely adamant: I wouldn't see them. But the problem is having to eat, pee, and wash; the problem is that the guests would realize I was locking myself in my room to avoid them. I can picture them knocking on my door, telling me to come out, and all criticizing me together. All I want is to be left alone in peace. I’m an adult, and I don’t want to have to lock myself in my room like this, but I don’t want to talk to guests when I’m neglecting my personal hygiene, doing nothing with my days, and being loathed by the parents I live with.

At first, I did some people-pleasing. Then, I had an angry outburst.

Now, I've managed to calm myself down. I've also set up an appointment with a therapist for next week.

But it's hard to accept the fact that I can't undo what I've done. And also, I'm afraid to even confide properly in the therapist.

I am ashamed of having been hit because I am an adult.

I'm in this situation because of them, so I don't feel guilty about taking advantage of them for now but I would so love to save up enough money to leave!

is it worth going or should I be a loser forever

This applies to relationships irl and, of course, on the internet. If you were to be in a very depressed episode or something bad were to happen in your life. Do you think there would be anyone who would actually care about your pain and suffering, or would they just ignore you like the plague?

I will never understand, there are few people who post on YouTube ,rant in 20 min video how they are losers meanwhile they have a degree and hold a job for years, bruh these people make me so angry,I just saw a video of a guy who's 35 year of and it had 1M views ,or that other guy who pretend to live in mother basement meanwhile he rants about how on causal Saturday he felt lonely and didn't get attention he wanted and other blog he post friends pool party,graduation and goes on podcast, tf is wrong with these people ​,they get alot of attention as well

I don't know how to think about this, maybe they won't actually kick me out but I'm still worried I don't wanna end up homeless even worse than I'm now.

Every time I think about getting the job I have a million bad scenario run through my head and makes me wanna puke from the anxiety.

I've already worked before and I know that It's gonna suck extremely bad and I won't be able to handle it.

I feel stuck with no way out this is such a pathetic way to live man, I wish I was a bit luckier than this but it is what it is.

there is so much wrong with me, now I'm really tempted to take the easy way out because I can't and wont be able to handle living.

you should give up , you will not get better

I hate my birthday. My birthday is coming up soon, and the closer that day gets, the worse I feel. The problem isn't that nobody will come or congratulate me. On the contrary, that's actually even a good thing. The main problem is my age.

My age terrifies me. I just can't accept it. I have this strong feeling of rejection toward my own age. I hate my age and my life. Thinking about my age makes me feel scared and miserable at the same time. Fuck, this year flew by so fast. All I did this year was lie in bed, I'm not even joking, and I realize that as I get older, time is only going to pass even faster.

People will judge you based on your age. I'm almost 30, and I haven't achieved anything.

Mentally, I don't feel my age at all. I feel like I'm stuck somewhere around the age of 14. That's roughly the age when I became a hikikomori. Unfortunately, a person can't really develop as an individual without social interaction. On top of that, I've spent all these years deteriorating inside four walls instead of doing something useful with my life. Although I doubt that even that would have helped me much. You simply can't replace genuine communication with other people and personal development by staying at home.

The older I get, the worse I feel, both mentally and physically. With every year, there seem to be more and more problems. And because you're a hikikomori, these problems will only keep piling up.

I'm unsure if posts like this are applicable to people who spent 12 years in their bedroom. I have less opportunities, less connections, no employment records for this period. I also have the same physical flaws that lead me to becoming hikikomori in the first place.

Im a woman (which i feel like always get hate in the hiki sub being a woman but Idc I belong here) and struggling with my sexaulity. I use to be hiki and only messed around online or enjoyed erotic fantasy. Ive since shedded being hiki after have a psychotic episode that cause me to come out of my room. I sometimes get crushes but I really can't see myself doing anything physically. I once was intimate with a male and felt nothing.

Part of me wonders if since I'm so adamantly childfree that I'm sex repulsed due to seeing how often birth control has failed women. I never want a child. So I wonder if getting sterilized will help fix that and id be more willing to be out there or if Im really just a closeted asexual.

My sexaulity has been all over the place in term of things if gotten off to masurbation wise but lately I'm finding male more gross and women more comfortable but I'm wonder if that's because men can't get me pregnant.

Anyway all this is hypothetical because I've never really dated. And I've been falling back into hiki habits like not going out and being a neet :/ lately

Do you see yourself as asexaul and child free since hikis don't leave the house or do you feel the your online exploration is valid as expressing your sexaulity? Asexauls can get off to pornography without wanting someone irl.