At first, I did some people-pleasing. Then, I had an angry outburst.
Now, I've managed to calm myself down. I've also set up an appointment with a therapist for next week.
But it's hard to accept the fact that I can't undo what I've done. And also, I'm afraid to even confide properly in the therapist.
I thought I had learned how to manage both my people-pleasing tendencies and my angry outbursts. But I was wrong.
My day was going productive, and I was feeling satisfied. However, at some point, a situation caught me off guard and I ended up reflexively people-pleasing. Then, I felt disappointed in myself for my own "fawn" response and got upset.
Ater that, I ended up having an angry outburst. Once again, I used violent speech and made threats (just like I've done in the past).
Now, I've managed to calm myself down. But I feel even more disappointed in myself for my angry outburst.
I did ask around for a therapist, and set up an appointment for next week. But it's difficult to accept the fact that I can't undo what I've done.
If you can relate to me in any way, I'd appreciate your input on how I can better manage my anger issues.
I may not reply to your comment, but I'd be grateful for your contribution. Thank you once again, in advance.