u/Coobs2

Found out last November that he was having a 2 year affair which lead me to go into premature labor at 30 weeks gestation. He is remorseful and doing everything to make it up to me. I am forgiving and staying because we have young kids. We act like the perfect family right now, as if nothing happened. We’re talking, loving and having sex regularly. I am doing everything right to heal and he is supportive. I love him and i understand his reasons but i already know that the moment i meet someone, i will have my fun and i won’t feel bad at all.

It’s been 5 months since i found out and it’s still the first thing that enters my mind as soon as i wake up. And you know what sucks? I have a new baby. I wake up every 2-3 hours throughout the night to nurse. So just imagine what my mind is going through.. every.single.night..

I’m so exhausted..