u/CookieRemote2625

So, I left. No contact for 4 days now.

I haven’t cried, didn’t break down, no panic, no anxiety or anything else. So after everything that I have been through with her, i am feeling pretty good.

BUT, I am thinking about her 24/7. all the time. It doesn’t stop, no matter what I do. Working, going out, watching tv, I can’t stop thinking about her. And I have so much of what I want to say, but I know it doesn’t make sense. So I don’t.

But how long until it gets better?

Hey guys,

so after months of begging, trying, crying and hoping, I finally feel I am done. The last 2 months were especially stressful, I got lied to every single day.

Usually it’s like that: she fucks up, I cry, I get away from her because I know this is not good for me. I am hurt. She eases the pain by promises, love bombing, promises of changes and so on.

For the past 2 months I came to reality, I managed to stay away longer, I used to say to me that her words don’t matter (because damn, it’s always just words. So many words. Never taken into action).

So right now, I want to stop the cycle. I don’t want this anymore. Staying hurts more than leaving. I REALLY don’t want that anymore.

So first step is done, I came to my senses.

How do I keep myself from ever going back? Right now she is blocked but I am so hurt, my brain is used to getting her attention after being hurt and for her to ease that pain by her false promises and love bombing…