Just looking for encouragement
In my head I know it’s not real but it still hurts my heart so I just need encouragement from people who have been through this…
A long story short I was seeing someone for five years. he was diagnosed with bipolar, which explained a lot of the ups and downs in our relationship. He refuses to try medication and smokes. I drew boundaries and when those lines are crossed, I cut ties. He would go weeks or even months without speaking to me when he would get into a depressive state and I could not mentally take it, it hurt me so much, so I broke things off. …..We don’t have any contact with the exception of Christmas. He told me merry Christmas and I responded merry Christmas hope all is well, but that’s it.
After that a few months went by and he was messaging me and I was very upset that I wouldn’t speak to him saying that I was a liar, and I turned my back on him. I said that I would always be there for him. I didn’t respond because I know that even if I took him back, he refuses to go to treatment and things will be good for a couple of months until he ups and leaves me again and I will be devastated and heartbroken all over again …I love him sooo much But that doesn’t mean that I should put up with mental abuse time and time again. And hurt myself mentally for him …So I am confident in my decision to break it off. I am happier. I am doing better however I found out today 15 days after he was messaging me he is in a brand new relationship with someone and he’s love bombing her all over the Internet and taking pictures with her and her children and in my head, I know that it’s this disease, but it still hurts. And even though I’m the one that broke off and I did it to better myself. It still hurts because I care so deeply for him and to see how quick he can just flip the coin and fall in love with someone else is just devastating..
And I hope that he does find someone one day and he takes his health serious and he turns everything around . I really want happiness for him. it’s just hurts that it’s in less than two weeks. He’s in love with somebody else after five years and there was so much emotional trauma that I’m working through in just to see him so happy so quick is hard.