Feeling sad that this will be my only pregnancy
I'm 33w pregnant with identical twin girls, so this is the final stretch! I'm super excited and grateful but lately I've been feeling a bit sad and almost wishing that I were having a singleton instead.
We only wanted two kids, so this will be my only pregnancy, and I'm sad I won't get to experience this again. Don't get me wrong, this pregnancy definitely wasn't easy (is it ever easy with twins??) but idk, I always imagined myself having two kids about 4-5 years apart. I imagined having a gender reveal with my first child, watching my first child bond and play with the new baby, etc. maybe this was all very idealistic but that's what I wanted. We most likely won't have a third child. I'm sad that I'll only get to experience the newborn phase, toddler phase etc one time and it's basically going to be twice as hard 🤣
I guess there's a silver lining to the fact that I'll only do this once.... but it just wasn't what I imagined pregnancy or motherhood to be like, and I know it's silly to be upset over something that I don't have control over, but still. I feel very conflicted.