u/Cool-Professional641

I’ve been I don’t even want to say ‘trying’ to because that implies lack but my awareness has been brining my SP my fiancé to materialise into the reality I want.
It’s been a year I know we shouldn’t look at the time
It’s been an mental battle
I am starting therapy and also anti depressants and anti anxiety medication- honestly this is more for me because It’s been so up and down about it.
I recently started to talk a close friend about it and I feel like she’s mocking me for wanting to materialise the reality I want and now I regret opening up to her.

Any advice on any other these things

I’ve come to the point where I think I might I guess give up. It’s been a whole year since and I know you’re not supposed to look at the time and time is linear, but how do you know on persisting.

I don’t actually want to stop either, I really do want my fiancé back in my life

Also update I have decided to also start therapy

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