Bad Slipping Away
Couple months ago, I was desperate. I asked reddit for urgent help, I was In a panick.
I realized what he was doing was emotional and verbal abuse.
My first day alone I started packing my things, my survival instincts started working overtime.
But my mind doesnt want to believe that he is bad.
I dont want to throw away 5 years of relationship out the door, I fell in LOVE with this man.
List of things he has done....
- gets frustrated about my memory problems
- will act angry if I dont do chores the second we get home from our 12 hour shift
-we made an agreement for chores, and he made up his own agreement the next day of his liking. (He does dishes and I do all the laundry.)
-When he does dishes he almost always slams the dishes (I have asked him several times not to, because I know he's only doing it to spite me and scare The dog)
he claims " I slam dishes cause I was a line cook, and we gotta do our job fast"
Punched a whole in the drywall wall
Disturbed my sleep by turning lights on and pulling blanket off while drunk because I was trying to get away from his drunkenness.
Threw my belt holder off the screws that it was resting on on the wall.
At camp threw the cooler at the truck, threw the chairs in the fire, threw the flashlight and started walking off into the darkness.
Threw my christmas box down the stairs and said "It's just christmas."
Knocked over a potted plant and just swept it under a table because he doesnt sweep the floors. Did the same thing with sugar.
I dont think I can break up with him face to face. I somehow dont feel safe.