COCSA Experience
I've tried to talk about this on another platform but it got removed there.
I have kept this secret to myself all 19 years of my life. I plan to tell no one but here.
When I was younger I really wanted mobile phones since that's popular within kids my age. Once I got mine, my parents reminded me not to search things I shouldn't— but you know not all kids listen. Giving a child boundless access to the internet unsupervised is never a good idea. Younger me was curious about a lot of things, cartoons, toys, and thing adults would do. I don't know how I stumbled upon R18 things but it happened. It corrupted my young mind, I think I was about 9-10 then. I wanted to try what they did in those videos. Then my naive mind tagged my younger brother along and did inappropriate things I'd rather not remember. There was no insertion involved but it's still SA. Then when I felt like it was too dangerous to do, I stopped. I didn't want to risk being found out.
I am still guilty of what I did before. I don't even know if my younger brother remembers or he's just keeping quiet. I don't know what to do about this. Every time I think I forgot, I remember again. I want to apologize but that wouldn't fix what I did nor do I think we'll be hanging out the same.
My last message are for future parents. PLEASE! Monitor what you give to your kid or educate them enough. I don't want this to happen to anyone else.