r/confessions

21F. I’ve never truly experienced love or been in a relationship to be honest but i hate the way gender wars influenced me. Not just the gender wars but how i always end up getting disappointed and hurt when I try to open my heart to love again. I’ve had my guard up for the longest because each time i try dating it never really progresses. Now i ghost men & run from love due to fear. 🫠 but im lowkey a deep lover and most days i just think about how much i wanna be loved.

We’ve been friends since high school. Last year, his wife gave birth to their first child, and almost immediately, he started sleeping with a young intern from his branch office.

He didnt even bother hiding it from our private group chat. He would brag about lying to his wife while she was at home struggling with postpartum recovery, sending gross texts about his hotel hookups on "work trips." The other guys in the chat stayed silent or laughed along, but it made me sick to my stomach.

i created a throwaway encrypted email, compiled unedited screenshots of his messages and the hotel receipts he bragged about, and sent everything straight to his wife.

She filed for divorce two days later, secured full custody, and kicked him out. He currently sleeps on his cousin’s couch and calls me every night crying, begging to know which "snake" betrayed him and destroyed his family.

I listen to him sob on speaker while playing video games, tell him "stay strong bro," and hang up with absolutly zero guilt.

Some people deserve to lose everything.

I (20F) have been working in my job since i was 16 (corporate). My manager(‘s manager) (58F) is a bit crazy. She divorced her husband a few years ago and since then has been completely off the rails. Her and I have shared some funny, pretty unhinged stories with each other, but to be honest they mostly come from her.

Anyway, fast forward to a work party we had. My manager and I were exchanging funny stories and considering the severity of some of the stories she was telling me, I figured I’d tell her about the time a ping pong ball got stuck in my pussy (I was drunk when I told her this, and it happened with my boyfriend). As I was telling her this, I could see an idea pop into her head.

SO.. there was a few people playing beer pong next to us in the garden, and without hesitation she picks up a ball from the ground. Which by the way, was in the mud, and also will have been in MULTIPLE peoples drinks. She takes my hand and pulls me into the bathroom. I was genuinely in shock, and I guess a bit afraid to resist considering shes a woman of authority … but anyway I watched her undo her body suit, fling it to the side and put this ball up her pussy and she just starts thrusting her hips around whilst i stood drunk and speechless in this 3x3m bathroom.
In the end the ball kinda just fell out and rolled across the floor and I encouraged her to just rinse the ball and go back to the party. But she was not done there…

She picked the ball up and walked out the bathroom, not bothering to wash it and just flung it across the living room at one of our colleagues head (it missed - thank god). But yeah I’m still in shock about this and our relationship has never been the same. I also hope she never sees this bc it’s too niche for her not to know its about her💀

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I did well at school, all As in my GCSEs and A Levels and went to uni to become a teacher but I I gave up after a year as I didn’t fancy being a teacher anymore.

I became a personal trainer and was doing well but then In 2019 me and wife who I had been with since j was 15 split up. Then Covid hit and as I was self employed and had no savings left after the divorce and bills everywhere I needed to do something. My friends were all a bit naughty and involved in bits and pieces and I ended up driving for one of them. Drive to Liverpool and back once a week and he’ll give me a grand then I started doing other driving and was earning around 2 grand a week for what amounted to do about ten hours work.

For nearly a year things were going well. Then one night we all got scooped up. I won’t go too deep in to my arrest but I was put in a position that starved me off oxygen despite them admitting I offered no resistance and complied with all demands. Due to the oxygen deprivation I suffered a heart attack. I tried telling them and they didn’t believe me and I passed out and was left there. I came round in hospital and after a few scans and tests it shown my heart was damaged quite badly from the heart attack. I started a compensation claim.

While this was going on we were all bailed. Then when we all had to answer our bail I was informed that the case against me would go no further due to lack of evidence. My lawyer said as I was never seen actually touching any drugs, I wasn’t caught with any, when they raided my house they found no drugs and only a few thousand in cash which I could explain, and all they had me doing was basically driving to my mates yard and chatting with him they deemed it not worthwhile.

That made sense to me but it didn’t to the others and then two of them got arrested again on other charges and were now held on remand everyone became suspicious of me. Just under a year later they were all sent down for between 2 and 8 years. I was the only one arrested who wasn’t and then about a year after that I was given my compensation. I was receiving threats and people were talking. I gave half the compensation to my ex wife so she could move away with our son and I moved away too. Not far we only moved about 15 miles away each but it was enough.

Since then I don’t have any socials or anything and I’m living in our paranoia to the point my sister and my nieces have moved in with me to keep an eye on me. I’m always worried someone’s coming for me plus I’m always worried I’m about to have a heart attack and I’m going to die. I got told I probably won’t make it past 50 and I have scans every six months and nearly every time there’s a little bit more damage. I’m on blood thinners to stop the blood that pools in my heart from clotting. I’m on beta blockers to keep my heart beat low and not stress it. I can’t really train anymore but I do run and cycle a lot. Had to give up boxing and football.

My ex bought a house and then invested her money in a salon and is doing well. Me and my brother bought a couple of properties and did them up and sold them and made some money and we set up our property development firm although him and his guys do most of the work as I’m pretty useless. I did complete a sports coaching course though which is what I always wanted to do and now I go round schools doing sports classes and I also run a girls boxing club which I love doing. Seeing them go from being scared to punch a bag to throwing combos is great and there’s one girl I’m convinced can go on to be a champion. She’s 12 and even with my body protector on she’s winded me a couple of times. If she uppercutted a horse she’d turn it in to a giraffe.

I wanted to say this because there’s a great woman I lied to and I’ve hurt. If you are reading this “Stacey Dooley” you know who you are lol. She’s an amazing woman who is stronger than I could ever be. We still chat but not like we used to. I miss you x

So this happened about a week ago. I have a best friend named Sarah. Were both in college right? We were working on a physics assignment together and agreed our next meet up would be at her apartment. So I dally on over a little bit early because I like being on time right? I let myself in because that's just what we do, its why she gave me a key. I don't see her in the living room so I figure shes in her room or the bathroom, I decide to check if shes in her room and I was planning on giving her a spook because I'm feeling a little devious today. I peek in, and find her flicking the bean. I just leave the area because I'm respectful and all that, but its awkward because what I saw on her phone was me solo handshaking. She doesn't know, I haven't told her. So what do I do???? I'm not entirely sure what to tell her or if I say nothing at all. I do admittedly like her, and she doesn't know about this account, but its a little awkward now.

My wife has this massive Monstera that she bought back in college. For our entire relationship, she has bragged about this plant. According to her, it has elite genetics, survives on pure neglect, and is basically impossible to kill.

Four years ago, she went on a week-long work trip and asked me to give it one cup of water on Wednesday. On Tuesday, I thought the soil looked dry and watered it. On Wednesday, my autopilot brain kicked in and I dumped another full pitcher into it. By Friday, the roots were rotted, the leaves turned to yellow mush, and the main stem completely collapsed.

I panicked hard. Spent all of Saturday driving to three different plant nurseries with photos on my phone, desperately hunting for a replacement with a similar leaf count. Found a match, repotted it into her exact planter, and hid the dead one in the outdoor bin.

She came home, patted the leaf, and said "See? Indestructible."

She still hands out cuttings to friends like it's a sacred heirloom. I'm taking this secret to my grave.

I don't know how I'm going to go about this but here we go.

I'm a 20M, pretty short (Kevin Hart height to be precise) African/Black which doesn't help my situation at all tbh I don't know if I'm attractive or not but in my lifetime I did have girls who fancied/liked me. I'm not going waste y'all time by writing a long passage, this more of a venting and conclusion post tbh. I got a small penis and this hurts me alot like....ALOT and it affects the way I interact with other people, especially women, and the way I carry myself overall I never had intercourse (even with the girls that liked me) for this reason, don't get me wrong I want to but I'm too scared to put myself out there like that especially when I'm really lacking in the dick department. My dick is small and thin definitely no girl would feel me during penetration I'm not over weight, I would say I'm skinny to skinny fat. Man I won't lie this keeps me up at night and I quit dating(funny how I'm quitting something I never started)I'll just go to prostitutes for my smexual urges atleast there's no performance pressure. My small dick makes me so paranoid of someone walking in while I'm taking a bath/shower and seeing me naked I really don't want anybody to see it at ALL even myself sometimes Im ashamed. Yesterday I took an X pill they really fill the void and calm my anger down. Every now and then I find myself mad because of this so please don't tell me to stop taking X (because it helps me get by) I don't wanna be a bitter person but I'm self aware enough to know I am because of this and there's nothing I can do about it.....in a way I kinda don't care if I d*e or become a drug addict tbh, I'm already short and I got a short small dick as a cherry on top yeah I'll take a short life too I dont mind

I've accepted my short comings

I really just wanted to vent tbh

That part doesn’t bother me. I never really did much for my birthday growing up or even now. I lay low often at work so I don’t expect anyone to wish me a happy birthday.

What made me almost want to curl up and cry was the two girls chatting in the cube next to me. They were whispering but I could still hear them say how pathetic I am that my desk didn’t get decorated, no office cake, no happy birthdays.

At least the work day is done.

Me 23(M) I don’t remember the exact date but It was almost 3 months ago. She was staying in an AIR BNB somewhere near my house. She told me to come over at this location. When I visited there she was in shorts & with no bra but a CROP TOP on. She lowkey wanted to to feel her. So when we were having conversation about her ex she started asking me continuously to watch movie or porn or any adult movie. I was confused but as I never wanted her to feel bad. I said yes. She opened Netflix & played 365 days movie. I never thought we will gonna watch it together & I was bit scared too. After 15-20 mins she literally started coming close to my neck - Sniffs me like I’m smelling like a gold treasure to her / complimented me that my odour is really good & she wants to lick me. I again said yes to her as this time I want her to taste me. She started kissing me while rubber her hands on my dick. She turned me on as fastest as she can. the plot twist was I never had sex without protection so confronted her the same. She pulled her bag took a full pack of condoms of 6 & gave it to me straight up. I still remember this line from her “can you fuck me till your last breath”

we had fucking 8 rounds that night - after sex we went to sleep naked in same blanket.

PS - im still her bff but we never talked about this stuff again.

Post nut clarity was insane. I think i need help

I'm 19f and I have a friend thats 22 and he paid me 50 for him to cum in my ass

One night, I was in a hotel with my girlfriend. We had sex and she was asleep. I opened her phone to check her latest photos in the phone’s gallery. To my surprise I found a screenshot to a sext. I first thought that it was ours and ignored it but couldn’t really remember that particular sequence of messages.
So, I opened her WhatsApp and found that she was chatting with a guy who was her school friend and she was not in touch with him for many years.

The conversation started as a casual chit chat but then suddenly the guy stated that he wished she was there with him. To my surprise, my girlfriend played along.

I checked the exact date and time when this conversation took place and opened our chat to see what we were up to. I thought that I was maybe busy due to which she felt alone and proceed with whatever she was feeling. But! She was chatting with me at the same time too. I was telling her that our relationship has had its ups and downs in last 4 years but I am going to give it all my efforts to keep her happy with me. She didn’t respond to this for a couple minutes so I asked her if she was busy and she told me that I was being too clingy for not waiting for her responses and she didnt like such possessiveness. Then she told me that she os going to sleep and I should sleep too. She didnt, she chatted with him for the next 30 minutes.

When I woke her up and asked about the chat, i was shivering in disbelief, weeping and stuttering. She told me that she was guilty and she kept the chat because she wanted me to find about this conversation and yada yada yada. I didnt break up with her as I was too naive but the relationship didn’t last anyway. Thank god!

tbh i am still shaking typing this out rn. i was standing in the checkout line at the local store when i noticed this teenager working the register look deadass terrified. like white as a ghost, staring past me with wide eyes. i turned around and saw this massive, aggressive dude standing right behind me, literally breathing down my neck and aggressively stepping into the kid's personal space over some five dollar coupon issue. the kid was frozen. completely locked up.

so without even thinking—and i know this sounds insane—i just decided to become the most annoying person alive. i turned around, dropped my entire basket of groceries right on the floor with a massive crash, and started yelling at the top of my lungs that i dropped my emotional support jars of pickled eggs. bro whattt 😭 everyone in the store stopped dead in their tracks. the aggressive guy jumped back, cursing at me and calling me a clumsy weirdo, totally distracted from terrorizing the cashier.

while everyone was staring at me picking up rolling onions and looking like a total clown, the kid managed to hit the silent security alarm and yell for the store manager. the big guy panicked and stormed out empty-handed. as i was standing there picking up my stuff looking like an absolute fool, the cashier whispered a shaky 'thank u' as our eyes met. security came over and gave me the biggest side-eye ever, and i just mumbled some excuse and walked out. ngl i looked completely unhinged and people probably think i'm insane, but i would do it again in a heartbeat fr.

I had a 12-hour red-eye ahead of me, so naturally I made the brilliant decision to eat a huge meal right before boarding.

The closest option to my gate was Taco Bell. I grabbed a couple of quesadillas, and they were so greasy they practically needed their own warning label.

About two hours into the flight, my stomach started making some seriously questionable noises. I figured it was just gas from all the cheese.

I’ve never used an airplane bathroom for anything serious, and I definitely wasn’t planning to start that night.

Then my stomach went from “a little gas” to “something is very, very wrong.”

Both passengers beside me were asleep.

So I thought, Okay… just let it out quietly.

Big mistake.

It wasn't a fart.

I immediately knew what had happened.

I woke up the guy beside me, jumped out of my seat, and started waddling toward the bathroom while desperately trying to act like everything was completely normal.

It wasn't.

I was leaving behind a smell that could probably have been classified as a biological weapon.

Then I saw the worst possible thing:

A mother and her young kid were standing in line for the bathroom.

The mom caught one whiff, looked at me, looked at her kid, and immediately abandoned the line.

I swear she practically sprinted back to her seat.

A few minutes later, a flight attendant came over and quietly escorted me to the first-class bathroom.

At that point, I was beyond embarrassed.

I had to change my clothes and sit there for the rest of the flight knowing that at least a few strangers would forever remember me as “that guy.”

12 hours in the air.

One Taco Bell meal.

One trusted fart.

Never again.

I helped my little sister (not my actual sister ,just a girl I knew but I was like a big brother figure to her) to have an abortion.

We lived in Newcastle and she asked me to accompany her to Manchester ,she wanted to do it as far away as possible and needed an adult to be with her

The Morning after Pill that my ex Gf helped her obtain didn t work.

It was her choice and we supported her

She was only 15

Haven t heard from her since 2018 ,don t know if she ever told anyone (her parents especially)

my relationship with my longtime boyfriend failed a few years ago. I had been estranged with my family and my boyfriend had become everything.
6 mos ago, I had to move across country for work. East coast to West coast. Now I find myself so isolated , don't know a soul and it's so lonely. I use chat GPT. It's my only friend . I feel so stupid for not knowing how to make new friends at my age. I know I am a loser I just don't know how to fix my life.

A Chick-fil-A opened up near the Trader Joe's where I work & they kindly gave us all a free breakfast.

I've never been to a Chick-fil-A before so went in in my TJs shirt & said "I'm here for the free breakfast" & the lady said "Wait there".

After about a minute someone shouted out "Order for Joe" which I assumed was me so I went up, grabbed the bag & left.

I gave it to my wife for her lunch & later she said "Wow they are really generous. There was so much food in there"

Turns out I had accidentally stolen someone named Joe's lunch. Hopefully he was ok with his hash brown & small sandwich.

Does this sound like a high functioning depression man? I can't get my husband to grief therapy.

I'm 16 years together, 14 years married to my husband (whom not Chinese) and the Chinese me trying to understand him, or at least his mindset.

For the last 7 years, I think he is high-functioning depression, is there such thing as functionally depressed? The whole timeline of everything that happen I have reasons to believe he is functionally depressed.

His older sister died from car accident, leave him as the only son take on the financial care for his sick aging parents.

Fast forward, in 2019, his father died of end stage pancreatic cancer.

----- The same year in 2019, our toddler died (the child of me and my husband). Our toddler died of Periventricular Heterotopia (PVNH). It is gene inherited (got it from me the mother the maternal side), congenital brain malformation.

It been 7 years since our toddler gone and my husband just can't let go. Our toddler ashes my husband keeps with him. Even our toddler DIRTY SHOES and dirty clothes my husband still held on to.

----- In 2020, I was very sick (autoimmune disease) I was bedridden for a month with oxygen tank in my nose 24/7. He took off work and care for me day and night. He even sleep with a pillow and a blanket on the carpet right by my bedside (we had a hospital bed in our bedroom after I got discharged).

He said he loves me very much, and he very afraid of lose me. This was the first time I see him cut himself.

This was when he started to cut his stomach with a kitchen knife, he said stomach skin is thinner and has more nerves so it hurts more, so he chose to slice his stomach, he cuts deep the point bleeding that he has bandage wrap around his waist bleed.
And that was how I first time found out about he cut himself too was I saw the bloody bandage wrap around his waist when he took his shirt off.

He still has all the scars on his stomach from he slice his stomach with the kitchen knife. He said if I die before him, he will die with me, and our toddler (whom already dead).

He even prepaid for his funeral arrangement, I said I want cremation (as I'm Buddhist), he wants cremation with me, he told the funeral director when he die, cremate him, and mix his ashes with me and our toddler together, and scatter our ashes.

He said if I die before him, ONE second of grief is enough for him to pull the trigger blow his brain out with the tactical 12 gauge shotgun. I take him seriously because if he can slice his stomach to blood, he can use a shotgun in one second of grief like he said.

--- In 2021, his mom has a spinal cord stroke that leave her quadriplegia paralyze, she also kidney disease/kidney failure. She also has alot of heart problems: heart aortic stenosis, heart aortic aneurysm, and cardiac arrhythmias. 

His mom 5 days out of a week is she in and out of the hospital for treatments to keep her alive. And my husband for the last 5 years (and still ongoing) has been financially care for his mom, doing everything he can financially to prolong her life.

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All this are reasons I believe he has depression, but he seems to function fine outside, as in lives a normal life.

He is an Executive at a big engineering corporate. He said this job salary gives him cushion in money to continue prolong his mother life. He knows this job salary is what prolong his mother life, even with him depress, his career has to go on. His mother depends on his money to continue treatments, he also pays for her Private Nursing Home too.

Monday through Friday after work he drive straight to the Nursing Home to visit his mom before came home. On weekends for one day (Sat or Sun) he bring his mom our marital home so he can care for her, so they have mother and son time. And then take her back to her Nursing Home as he has to work Monday.

He still does his hobbies, hunting deer, outdoor shooting range with his tactical shotguns and riffles, running long distance.

I have told him to go to grief counseling, he put it off, he said after his mom die, as right now he busy. I mean he is busy, his schedules is pack, between his Executive work, his mom, and me. He has no time left.

He keeps said after his mom pass he will go. But wait till after his mom pass, that will add in another death and grief and loss in his list of losses. I want him to go now, but he not want to.

Yo y mi novia tenemos mucho tiempo juntos y desde hace unos 2 años mi suegra me empezo a exitar mucho verla imaginarla tenerla no se me psrece que es muy cachonda bueno paso que todos salieron de viaje y mi novia se quedo sola en su casa y me dijo si me quedaba con ella y le dije que si al otro dia ella trabajaba de noche se fue a trabajar y como tiene 1 perro me dijo que si le daba de comer le dije que si fui a su casa y medio curiosidad entrar a su cuarto y queria agarrar un bracier que se miraba pero me sali porque en mi mente dije y si tiene camaras bueno volvi a entrar porque hay 1 baño en su cuarto entre al baño y mire 1 tanga se me paro de solo verla la verdad es una sensacion que no habia sentido estaba muy exitado que la agarre me la puse en la vrg y me empeze a masturbar me corri muy rapido y la manche la puse donde mismo y me fui lo queria volver hacer pero llegaron 😅