Today will be my first OD
Today, may isang OLA ako na io-OD ko na. Titigil na ako sa Tapal System. By next week, 7 more OLAs ang magiging OD na ako. Masakit at nakakaguilty pero it's better to do this than to continue the Tapal System na wala naman nangyayari. 💔
I've contacted the said OLA and thankfully ang professional ng response nila. Although hindi ko sure kung kelan pa ako makakabayad. So ineexpect ko na makareceive ng calls and texts and emails, and worst: harassment, threats, whatsoever. Ireready ko na ang sarili ko.
Because of this community, gumaan kahit papaano pakiramdam ko knowing na I'm not alone. Syempre andito pa din ang anxiety, pero nilalakasan ko nalang loob ko.
I don't mind them calling all those in my contacts because honestly, buong family ko lang laman ng contacts ko, and I've already told them about my situation. I don't really care if they post me on SocMed too. I've had the worst embarrassment already. Matagal na akong walang dignidad. 💔
But I do worry na umabot sila sa workplace ko. I'm in a corporate and it's a very professional environment. Baka mawalan ako ng trabaho kapag nangyari yun. Huwag naman sana. 🥹
Binigay ko na lahat kay lord. But I promised myself, hindi ko papabayaan sarili ko. I'm going to get past this. Hindi man instantly, pero step by step, kakayanin!
Lord, promise, kakayanin ko to. Hindi ako magpapatalo. This will serve as my greatest lesson learned!
Padayon po para sa ating lahat. Laban lang. Kapit lang. Papabor din sa atin ang panahon. 🫶🙏
2027 Debt-free life cutiee