New to TRT and need insight
0.3pg/ml free testosterone (direct), 18 ng/dl testosterone, 146.0 pg/ml estradiol, 82.3 nmol/L Sex Hormone Binding Glob, serum: these are my baseline labs 43 yr old female with symptoms of brain fog, fatigue, extreme anxiety, weight gain and muscle loss despite over a decade in the gym strength training. My physique used to be on point and now not so much over the last year. I'm seeing a midwife at a progressive women's health clinic that seems very in tune to women's HRT. She first put me on DHEA as a conservative approach, which worked well for a couple months until I did a complete 180 and I was miserable. We redid bloodwork after that and my DHEA more than doubled and my testosterone didn't move. Now she has prescribed me 20mg of test cyp injections compounded split into 2 doses 10mg twice per week. I'm taking those SubQ. Been on it for 3 weeks tomorrow and I felt good at first but this week I feel CRAZY. My anxiety has improved a bit which has been so nice, but its like I've traded that for extreme sadness, yet I can't cry or seem to feel any other emotion, don't seem to have my normal ovulation libido that I even managed to have without TRT, and I have quite a bit of rage and I'm taking it out on my partner, and it seems my insomnia and anxiety is back this am at my trough (due for another injection tomorrow morning). No physical symptoms like acne, hair or sore throat I'm told to watch for. I called the Dr. before my last injection and told her how I was feeling emotionally. She confirmed my dose and said to stick it out for a couple more weeks, that my body is likely just adjusting. But idk if I can stick this out. My relationship, and I feel like my sanity, is on the line. I've been reading here that 20mg per week is a relatively high dose to start with. I'm also only 120lbs and I'm very sensitive to most things I put in my body. Does any one have any insight? I'm thinking about scaling back my dose tomorrow to only 10mg/week (5mg per injection twice per week).