Feeling confused about weaning
Hi all. My little one is turning 1 next Wednesday. It was the plan to breastfeed until a year and now that it’s coming, I’m so torn.
I have only one reason why I would like to quit and it’s so vain. I cannot stand the way I look. My weight? It makes me so insecure. I’ve been working out regularly, I’m not eating a lot (which might be one of my problems), but I don’t want to have to put in so much effort to lose weight when I know if I stop breastfeeding, I know I won’t have that issue!
Not only that, but I have Zepbound waiting for me in my fridge. It’s just there. Waiting to be used. And I get that it’s technically okay to use during breastfeeding. The particles don’t pass through because they’re too big, but what if that just stops my supply? What if I end up not losing cause my hormones are still causing me to retain weight?
Why do I want to continue? The connection. The bond. I LOVE BREASTFEEDING! I can’t imagine stopping but I absolutely hate how I look. And I can’t in my mind try to justify it. I can’t justify my weight. I know that my body is doing an amazing, miraculous task, but I hate how I look. My self esteem is at an all time low. But I love breastfeeding.
I don’t know. I’m so stuck. I don’t even think I need to list the pros in a group like this. We all know them so I’ll just list my woes.
Ugh. I just need advice. I’m so down bad over this.