How do I cope with this?
My best friend who ive saved from suicide 2 times git mad at me and said it was my fault and that im dumb or stmh if I don't know what I did. But I genuinely didnt do anything. I didnt makr fin if him. I didnt make him look bad. Nothing. Also note that we are long distance homies so I cant just ask him irl and he blocked/removed me in all platforms and he asked his gf to do the same... he has been my mental help for years and ive grown uo with him in the important years. We have been friends for 4 or 3 years and idk what to do...I feel sad yet motivated to make my analog horror series but who will I text...who will I help when he is down. Who will replace him. Also im not lonely. I got friends. But I lost HIM. And even tho he isnt my Day 1 i still valued our relationship a LOT so it hits a lot. Hes also 9ne if tue only people who supported my passions and never made fun if me amd told me that im not ugly etc etc (not lying but actually hel9jng me see me for who I am) and im just shocked and overwhelmed cuz idk what I did and for him to remove me from everywhere it must've been smth bad but I genuinely didnt di anything so im confused. Thank you for reading and pls help me...