Is it just normal in this role (pharm tech) to feel burnt out after only working half a year? I noticed I’ll come home from work most days and feel super high strung, tense and even nauseous- and usually end up crying to my spouse about how stressful my day was. Which I feel bad about because they likely have also had a stressful day at work and I shouldn’t be bringing work home with me. There’s been a couple times where I’ll start puking in the morning I’m supposed to go to work and then puke all day and I feel like maybe it’s the stress of the job making me get sick? Of course on those days I’ve had to call out of work, but then it causes more stress when I go back to work because my coworkers will make passive aggressive comments about me being gone and leaving the team hanging.
No one at my job takes 15 minute breaks, just a lunch and one of our lead technicians is amazing at their job, but if they see people standing or even sitting for a minute, they will get annoyed or talk about them when they are not there to our boss so it makes me nervous to even take a break or sit down in front of that lead if that makes sense. I get scared to take breaks at work (even though I work 10 hour shifts) for that reason and also out of fear for retaliation or that they will cut my hours because they have done it to other people. I love my job, and love that I’m getting to learn and feel like this is a great career path, but I’m feeling sad that I’m already getting burnt out.