u/Cove0Crow

I feel like it adds an easy (whether malicious or accidental) misunderstanding into what gender dysphoria and being transgender is. I was always a woman, I didn't change my gender, I just realized I was a woman and worked on looking like it.

Yes, this is the nitpicky-est thing I've ever said. But. It's something that's been eating at me for a bit now and I'm curious if it's crossed anyone else's mind.

Edit : to be clear I don't like "transexual" either... That one has transmedicalist undertones. And I do not have a better term to offer as a substitute

Alright, Today I'm feeling tired and shitty. So I'm gonna go on a rant. About things I fully understand aren't gendered, but still make me feel bad and "less feminine"

Doing martial arts : I really like jujitsu and MMA. And every time I "win" I feel bad. Even though I love doing it.

Liking guns : I don't own firearms, but I'm really into designing them in cad programs for fun and looking into the history of specific firearms. Yet, the gun world is full of the most transphobic people you have ever met, and is mostly dominated by men.

Eating fast : I don't even understand why this makes me feel bad. I just eat really fast.

Wearing all black and combat boots : I'm a punk and I love the style, but for some fucked reason I will look at that and think "am I still valid if I wear that"

Sleeping weird : somehow, in the back of my brain, I have internalized that sleeping anywhere other than a bed is "masculine"... I have a habit of sleeping wherever, and will sometimes move from bed to my chair or floor.

Anyone else have weird things like that?