Found some resources thats helped me and thought I would share
So little backstory about me. Iv been in a toxic relationship for about 10 years. I mean the guy was emotionally and sometimes physically abusive. Always talked bad about me and my family. And he would throw things at me. And I kept going back as soon as he would apologize. I just could never really understand it. I tried therapy and it really got to the surface but it was just too general for me. And I started looking ip resources. I found one from this guy named Jeff. And originally i thought it would be like another therapist. (Eye roll) But he wasnt. He came in and gave me a fresh persoective and met me where I was with the resources he provided me. I seen so much improvement within myself. Confidence wise and just my overall ability to stand my ground.Happy to share his link if anyone is interested. But either way. Yay me. This has been such a remarkable thing to finally get over.
Just thought I share that to let people know that there is hope. Dont give up.