u/Crazy-Permission2181

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المفروض الانسان ينتمي لأي؟

او يروح فين؟

وهو عايش في بيئه مش شبهه

ناس مش فهماه وكمان فشل أنه يلاقي حد يحبه بالطريقه الي بيتمناها..

هل هيفضل يعيش وينافق عشان يرضي المجتمع ؟

طيب وامتي هيرضي نفسه؟

يعني ليه مثلا حد في بقعه جغرافيا غير هنا انسان تاني زيه زي..قادر يعيش بحريته..

بيعبر عن نفسه

شخصيته

احاسيسه

وانا لا؟

ليه في ناس مولودين في بيئه سامحه ليهم يعملوا كل حاجه بيتمنوها حتي ولو فنفس بقعتي الجغرافييه

وانا لا؟

اشمعنا انا حظي وحش؟

الالحاد لعنه اتمني اني كنت لسه متدينه اعيش وسط القطيع واحده منهم لا افقه شيء ولا اعاني من الاختلاف و إيجاد معني جديد لحياتي.

I'm an atheist

I feel like I've failed to find a life partner because whenever I get into a relationship, I distance myself and become repulsed by them for no reason.

After I distance myself, I contact them again after months, maybe 4, 6, or even a year. If they refuse to come back, I become obsessed with them and can spend 4 or 5 years in a state of obsession. The obsession becomes pathological; I might go to their workplace

or threaten them on their work page to get them to talk to me again.

Honestly, a lot of things are sickening. I wouldn't mind tearing their name off my hand, but I might hate them the next day.

Honestly, it's a difficult situation, and I can't understand myself. It's completely beyond my control.Does anyone understand what this is?! 😀