Hi all,
I’m a 28F, living in the US, did my master’s here. Everyone around me is getting married....literally everyone in my batch, both here and back in India. And I’ve just… become numb going through this entire AM process.
Every day it’s the same thing...meeting matches, having conversations, and I feel like a lot of people are just doing this because it’s “time” or because society expects it. And that scares me.
I am so, so scared of ending up living a mediocre life...just going through the motions, living up to everyone else’s expectations, dealing with constant family pressure and anxiety around age and marriage.
I don’t feel a connection with anyone I match with anymore. And at this point, I don’t even know if it’s them or me. I think I’ve just become too jaded. I don’t have the same energy to put in effort like I did before.
And I hate that I even think this, but sometimes it feels like I might just give in eventually. Marry someone I’m not really into, just to get it over with. And live a very average life.
It honestly feels like my life is slipping away, and I don’t see any real happiness or hope for the future right now.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
Has anyone else felt like this?