u/CrazyPenguin690

I’m 4 years deep into blackjack and online slots addiction and I honestly feel exhausted.

What started as “just for fun” slowly became something I think about every day. I’ve lost money, time, sleep, relationships, and most of my peace of mind. I keep chasing losses and telling myself I’ll stop after one more session, but it never ends that way.

The worst part is that online gambling is always available. Even when I want to quit, I end up reinstalling apps, depositing again, and repeating the same cycle. I feel ashamed admitting this, but I don’t want to keep living like this.

I’m posting because I genuinely want to stop. If anyone here has beaten blackjack or slot addiction, what actually helped you? Self-exclusion? Blocking apps? Therapy? Support groups? I’m willing to try anything at this point.

Right now I just want my life and my mind back.

I’m on the edge of losing it again. The urge to gamble is hitting me hard tonight and my brain keeps telling me “just one more time.” I know where that road leads, but right now it feels difficult to care. Trying not to throw away the progress I already made. If anyone’s been through this phase and got past it, I could really use some advice or support right now. Please, help me.