u/CrazySevens711

So I am someone who has been single all my life. I am in my 30s and i guess for a little more context, i am disabled. I know I need to do my part and make a move which I have. It has been rejection every time. It has mainly been being left in the dust. I am ghosted by someone I have been talking to for a bit already. It isnt someone that I just met. It hurts me so bad basically being a reject. I desire to be with a woman. I want to have a family and all that but I cant even get a date or basically open up to someone without being shut down completely. It has made me more closed off not wanting to open up anymore. When someone asks what I am looking for, I even keep that as saying for friends and whatever happens happens because that's as far as it has gotten with me with anyone I try getting close with. I possibly ruined an opportunity recently because she clearly said she wanted someone to be with but I said friends and let things happen. I dont want to get my hopes up wanting and expecting it to get that far when it has never gotten that far and it is like I am keeping my safe space because of the amount of times I've been hurt and basically how I've been hurt. What can I even do at this point? Will a woman even give a disabled guy a chance? I am not even helpless. I do basically everything on my own. I even help others when I can.